life
ok no story this time, just a random thing that needs to be said. I am absolutely convinced that everyone values life way more than they should. Maybe ‘value’ isn’t the best word. But it just seems like everyone is way too concerned with their own little life and how things are going for them. I sure that everybody realizes billions of people have walked on this earth before them, and of course they have all died. But doesn’t anybody realize how may of those people died after living pathetic pointless lives. Thousand of people die every day and it doesn’t change a thing. Ask yourself the questions, “If I died today, would it even matter in the end?” I mean, of course your friends and family will cry and miss you, but in terms of the whole world… that’s like .00000001% of people whose lives are affected. Not even one hundredth of a percent. That’s ridiculous! What are you people doing with your lives! Ok, so you just blew 200 dollars on a really nice pair of jeans. I’m sure you will be a great loss to the fashion industry. And your new car will need another person to drive it… great. I’m not trying to say I’m better than everyone or anything like that. In fact, I fall right into this category. I wake up every morning, go to school, and go to bed. What a pathetic life eh? I guess it’s at least good that I recognize the pointless of my life. If you’re a hardcore Christian or something who believes you will live for eternity with your lord in the land of milk and honey… grow up. It might be time to take a long hard look at your life and say… wait, I’m responsible for my own life? (insert mocking tone here). I agree that the bible makes for a very happy ending, and it makes light of death… but I stopped believing in fairy tales a long time ago.
What if your time on this earth was all you had, and you can’t just stick around waiting for something better? I can’t stand the feeling of sitting here in my 10x20 foot dorm room, going day to day doing stupid things (like writing this blog I guess… hmm) I swear I would jump at the chance to do something important. I’m really not afraid of death. As long as it was a good death… for some cause that I really believed in. I guess what I really can’t stand is the thought that the typical American will do anything to escape death. If I put a knife to a 95 year old man… odds are he would say oh please, please don’t kill be because bla bla bla. (don’t get the wrong idea… I don’t plan on testing this theory). But if you thing about it, it’s an old man who is going to die in a couple years anyways. Odds are he hasn’t accomplished anything in those 95 years… and he probably doesn’t plan on accomplishing anything significant in the next few years.
I wish I knew what the meaning of life was, because it would give some direction to this blog. If you learn anything from this blog, just understand that there has to be more than sitting around watching each day go by. And please… don’t start killing people and say it’s ok because their life is unimportant. That might be going a little too far. But understand that death isn’t the end of the world… (heh, that sounds funny). Death is inevitable, the best thing you can do is die with honor. Or just go to your office every day and grow older until one day you die in front of your TV. What ever works.
-steve
p.s. can you say morbid? Sorry, I think I just really need to go do something with my life
