irony or stupidity?
so it's been awhile since i've blogged, but i'm a busy kid. ok not really. but now i have a subject that is a 'blog-necessity'. ok here goes: So high school is over and everyone is starting college. normally this is a pretty sad thing, but it turns out that just about everyone i know is going to the U of A with me. However, as the end of the summer draws closer, i'm hit with the fact one of my friends is leaving for virginia. if you know me, then this 'mystery-girl's' name isn't such a big secret. but for the sake of blog-confidentiality... she will remain nameless. anyways, i've hung out with said girl quite a few times in the last month and the more i hang out with her, the more i don't want her to move away. is it ironic that one of the people who i would most like to say here is moving the farthest away? did that make sense? well here's more irony for you: this girl has lived down the street from me for the last few years, but i haven't really got to know her until these last couple months of summer. and soon she'll be gone. Don't get me wrong, i'm really happy for her because she's definitely going places, and virginia is just the first step for her. And you know there's no good way to tell her that i wish she'd stay because of a couple reasons... first- there's no good reason to stay here, second- virginia is going to be way sweeter than this hell-hole of a desert, third- why make her feel bad about leaving if she has to go anyways, fourth- ok i'll stop at 3. But honestly- damn!
Now it's time for me to explain all of my mixed emotions: i think i'm jealous of her because she had the guts to leave and start school in a completely new place. and i think going somewhere where i wouldn't know a single person really had a big impact on my decision to go to the U of A. Oh but wait, there's more emotions: she honestly is the coolest girl i've ever met. Without even knowing it, she likes everything i could imagine the perfect girl taking an interest in. So besides me rambling on about how athletic, smart, or drop-dead-gorgeous she is... i still have more to say. It really wasn't 'love at first sight' or something cliche like that. it was more like the little things that just started to add up. For instance: yesterday i asked her what her favorite color was, and i was praying she would say "i don't really have one". and guess what... that's EXACTLY what she said! i really just wanted to jump up and say "common! that was a trick question and she still got it right"!!!!!!!! i mean, who says that? besides me... (i think i talked about this a few months ago in a blog called 'my favorite type of nothing')
I hate to say it but i never saw this coming, but i guess all my friends saw it coming before me because they suspected something before i even knew how i felt. Well to make this long story a little longer i'll sum up in a few vague and confusing sentences. I know she's leaving, and i'm not sure if spending as much time as i can with her is just going to make it harder to say goodbye, or if i'll be mad at myself for not hanging out with her as much as i could while i still had the chance. God knows that telling her all this will make it harder to say bye... or just really awkward between us. anyways, i guess this is just destiny's way of laughing in my face. i hope i can find a girl half as great as she is, and i hope she finds a guy that's twice as good as me... she honestly deserves it.
-steve
p.s. so the real reason i wrote this blog is because i'm trying to write a song about all this, but i just have too much to say in a few verses and choruses and i can't even decide where to start... writing a blog is a lot like writing a song... just easier :) and knowing my timing, i'd probably finish the song the day after she leaves.
Now it's time for me to explain all of my mixed emotions: i think i'm jealous of her because she had the guts to leave and start school in a completely new place. and i think going somewhere where i wouldn't know a single person really had a big impact on my decision to go to the U of A. Oh but wait, there's more emotions: she honestly is the coolest girl i've ever met. Without even knowing it, she likes everything i could imagine the perfect girl taking an interest in. So besides me rambling on about how athletic, smart, or drop-dead-gorgeous she is... i still have more to say. It really wasn't 'love at first sight' or something cliche like that. it was more like the little things that just started to add up. For instance: yesterday i asked her what her favorite color was, and i was praying she would say "i don't really have one". and guess what... that's EXACTLY what she said! i really just wanted to jump up and say "common! that was a trick question and she still got it right"!!!!!!!! i mean, who says that? besides me... (i think i talked about this a few months ago in a blog called 'my favorite type of nothing')
I hate to say it but i never saw this coming, but i guess all my friends saw it coming before me because they suspected something before i even knew how i felt. Well to make this long story a little longer i'll sum up in a few vague and confusing sentences. I know she's leaving, and i'm not sure if spending as much time as i can with her is just going to make it harder to say goodbye, or if i'll be mad at myself for not hanging out with her as much as i could while i still had the chance. God knows that telling her all this will make it harder to say bye... or just really awkward between us. anyways, i guess this is just destiny's way of laughing in my face. i hope i can find a girl half as great as she is, and i hope she finds a guy that's twice as good as me... she honestly deserves it.
-steve
p.s. so the real reason i wrote this blog is because i'm trying to write a song about all this, but i just have too much to say in a few verses and choruses and i can't even decide where to start... writing a blog is a lot like writing a song... just easier :) and knowing my timing, i'd probably finish the song the day after she leaves.
