Pointless

Well I tried to get a couple posts up that weren’t about that girl that I can’t stop thinking about. I managed to write one mediocre post that didn’t involve her, but now I’m back to being myself… with my pointless thoughts. Well this blog has to do with a little message that she sent me a couple days ago. She said “do you remember that one time when you caught the clock at 11:11 and then you said 'make a wish'.” well apparently she heard the song Konstantine (by something corporate) and it just reminded her of that night. After reading her message I found myself smiling and thinking about that night. I hit reply and started to type, “yeah I remember that, but do you remember that other night when…” and then I stopped. I’m not sure why I didn’t send her the message. I think I felt like I just reply too quickly, too often. Then I was thinking about how I should take her advice and stop talking to her (I talked about this in the blog ‘this is a long one, don’t read it’) . Anyways, I caved in like 2 days and I just replied like 5 minutes ago.
I’m not sure this blog is going anywhere, but i noticed that the “11:11” thing was like a direct reference to one of my previous posts. I can't tell if she was trying to imply anything with that “catch the clock at 11:11” comment, but it got me thinking about the post I wrote a couple months ago. I replied to her and said, “I remember that night” and “ that’s a good memory”. But what I really wanted to tell her was “Sure that memory is a good one, but I know one that’s way better.” Then I would have gone on to tell her about how she looked when she was crying with her makeup running down her cheek as I sang her a song on the day I left. But of course, you can’t say something like that to ‘a friend’. So I just rambled on about pointless things that I shouldn’t have even bothered to say. Well I think I’m starting to ramble again… so I’ll just stop here
-steve