happy endings

i just finished moving into my dorm room today and there's nothing left to do but blog. As fun as this whole college thing is going to be, there’s some things that i'm really going to miss from my old life- there's some people that im going to miss. Well you all know who you are. But there’s one person in particular… yea, you guessed it- it’s the same girl that’s been the focus of my last two posts. I said I’d keep you updated so here goes: She came over this morning before I left, and at first I really wasn’t going to play the song for her… but then she just said, “so do you wanna play me a song?” lol- What do you say to that? So I played it, and it went pretty well. Actually it went great. If you’ve read my blog called “Reaction” (http://noiseandwords.blogspot.com/2004/11/reaction.html#comments) then maybe you know what I’m talking about. But if you have no idea what I’m talking about then I’ll try to paint a picture: she smiled when I thought she would, laughed when I expected her to, and cried the whole time. You really can’t ask for a better reaction. and I know she’ll probably read this, so let me just say… although I may not have cried, it meant just as much to me as it did to you- if not more. You probably don’t realize this, but having you listen to all my songs really meant a lot to me. I wanted to say thanks because I’ve never really had an audience, and it makes everything worthwhile. I’m not sure who will listen to me now, but I’m trying to just laugh that off so I can keep typing… Anyways, just… thanks. I guess that’s all I can say. I’m not really too good at goodbyes so if I didn’t say too much don’t think that it wasn’t on my mind. I always thought that there would be some epic goodbye, but I guess, well, I don’t know. it just ends with a hug before you close the door. I don’t think I’ve ever been sad like this before, so maybe this is just new to me. It seems like things aren’t supposed to work out this way, but I guess it happens all the time. I guess you have to end one life before you start another. Well I think it was a good ending and I’m glad I had the chance to meet you guys. I’ll miss all of you.

-steve

p.s. there’s something about wanting to smile and cry at the same time that just makes a whole lot of sense right now.