screaming and kicking

Well the ex- girlfriend thing is still puffing smoke like a dormet volcano just waiting to explode. I decided that the best thing can do is get is get as far away as i can... while i still have a chance. yeah, so natashia still wants to get back together. At first i really didn't see this coming because she played it off all cool-like. But when i clearly stated, no. Oh boy did it get dramatic! I seriously gave everything i could to that girl, and she never gave anything back. i mean not one thing. I knew that i was getting the short end of this stick -so to speak-, and i also knew that she wasn't gonna realize what she had, until it's gone. I'm not saying i'm perfect, because i screwed up sometimes too. but the truth is, i really don't think she'll find a better guy than me. and that's really too bad. I hope she will find 'the perfect guy' and if she does, i'll be happy for her. But i guess the one thing i learned is- whoever said, "you only get out what you put in" well that's not true. The only advice i can give to somebody who has a troubled realtionship is: if he/she needs a second chance, fine. But a third and forth and fith chance, not fine. Draw the line somewhere people! don't be a dumbass like me and drag the relationship out. People don't change that easily, and it only gets worse as you go. I would just like to say that i realize how pathetic my drama- related blogs are, but as they say... Another day, Another blog. Ok i guess they don't say that, but i do. i'm gonna join the band-wagon on this one and say- i know the right person is out there, and i just haven't found them. but i'm not gonna act like all (or most of) the retarded people at my school, and in the rest of the world- because i'm not going to conduct a frantic search and go from person to person and have a nervous break down because i can't find the right 'one'. Give it time people. be patient (as opposed to retarded)
-steve
* god, will somebody please make something exticing happen to me!!!!!!!