here goes...

So it’s late, my roommate is sleeping, and really good music is playing. It’s not often that I feel like typing about all the vague things that run through my head, but I changed up the blog, so why not eh? There’s a good chance that I could sound like a pussy on this one, but here goes: the lack of a girlfriend for the past 2 years has made me think… what am I doing? It’s not that I can’t just hook up with a girl if I really wanted to (sorry about sounding like a frat guy) but there’s been a reason. I think I’m tired of just playing around with the date-for-a-week game. I’m pretty sure that I’m the only one who still believes in true love these days. Did no one else ever read fairytales when they were kids? As lame as it is, I always loved the knight saving the princess thing. Call it cliché or whatever, but I still don’t get tired of the ‘save the day, get the girl’ theme, and especially the 'happily ever after' theme. I guess I just haven’t saved the day yet… so it’s only fair that I haven’t gotten the girl. But seriously, it seems like nobody cares about falling in love anymore. And I don’t mean the kind of love where you say ‘I love you’ when you hang up the phone. I mean the kind of love that makes not having that new car or dream house ok. Or the kind of love that makes you smile 40 years after you’ve been married. I’m talking about the love that makes you quit your job because you have to travel too much, and you’d rather turn down a promotion if it meant seeing your wife less. I don’t think it’s really that complicated, but love is all it’s cracked up to be. There wouldn’t be so many fairytales with a theme of true love, if it wasn’t anything special. The truth is—true love is worth waiting for, and it’s worth fighting for, and sometimes it’s worth dying for. The concept is simple… it’s the people that complicate things. I think I’d rather wait around for nothing than get married and divorced a few times. So here’s my theory: there wouldn’t be so many stories about true love if it never existed in the first place, so it had to exist at one point. Now maybe times have changes, but not for me. I’m thinking that if I play my cards right, it’s only a matter of time before I rescue a girl and we fall in love. And not that fake “we fight all the time love” or “she really pisses me off love” or even that “look at the size of my diamond ring love” I mean the good old fashion, unexplainable love; where we both feel the same way about each other and nobody else understands why. So there… that’s my ‘lame’ side that I’ve been hiding for so long. But nobody knows about this blog so I can say whateva I want! Lalalalalalalallaalalalaa aaaahhhhhh

-steve